Reflecting to myself before leaving my 25. Some people ask me how it feels like to be at where I am now (on this age and lifestyle). I like to tell them I have no answer. Ask me again when I fall hard to the bottom line and most probably i still won’t have the answer. Neither when I make it to the top.
I don’t know how life happens. It just does.
One day you wanted to be alone, but suddenly someone comes and you’re officially with someone. How did it happen? Ask life.
One day you wanted to have an easy life, but then your life is full of struggle. How did it happen? Ask life.
That also applies for when you want a challenging life, but you got an easy one and then you jump yourself into troubles.
Ask life, why sometimes it gives us lots of options and yet sometimes leaves us optionless.
Ask life, why it screws us at times, and sometimes it soothes us in other times.
But terribly, life is as answerless as most of us do. It just happens, giving out no explanation. I believe life treats us differently. But then, I stop searching for explanation and gives out my energy and mind to just enjoy it. The dark and light side of it. I promise myself, I will do less to understand life, and will do more to just live it.
And then comes times to the talk about love, the popular topic for everyone, why it comes and why it goes? This time, I will tell you to ask love. Do love and life have problem and don’t want to be together? Because it’s undeniably true that life is getting more and more loveless. People hate each other, people judge each other, people screw each other, people treat others like they’re not people. That is not for me to answer, ask life, ask love.
So, leaving 25. I don’t want to think I’m wiser in anyway cause I don’t have the right mind to care for the answers. All I wanted to do is to chill myself down when the flames are up around me, and just to find better shoes to walk my life journey when the rocks are heavy and sharp. I won’t say I will prioritize love coz’ it is all I need, no it’s not. I don’t think it is. I won’t promise anything and anyone. I want people around me to think less of me, because I don’t want to be what worries them. I don’t want people to love me deeply, because I can’t promise them I will love them back. I will stay as who I am from before, someone who changes from time to time.
So, hello 26! Be good to people around me, because when you’re good to them, they will be good to be with me. I wish they got lots of love, so they will be lovely. Give them less problems, so they can share more joy. And give them more strength when it comes times I act insecurely wicked. And give them more patience to deal with my cruelty when my mind is hurting. I wish them all the best, because when they become the best, that means I will be surrounded by honey and glitters. Cheers!
Now, it’s your turn to say a thing or two, life. I told them to ask you. Cheers!